Can I just say that gender is kind of confusing. Like, yeah it’s cultural, but it must be more than that, cuz of trans people and stuff. I mean, people actually change their bodies to match their gender. And Savage Love last week had a letter from a guy who was born intersexed, but the operated on to be feamle, but felt like he was really male. I mean, that’s complicated. <\/p>\n
When I was a youth, I was thinking about gender a lot. I remeber being in 7th grade and Louis demanding whether or not I wanted to be a boy and whether or not I would get sex resassignment surgery if I could and me not answering cuz I didn’t know. I hated<\/em> girl drag. I hated having to wear a skirt every day to school. I felt like it limited my motion and my freedom, but obviously I felt more than that, cuz I won’t wear women’s clothes now unless I have to. I try to avoid activities where I have to wear costumes that are gendered female. Joan of Arc got burned at the stake rather than wear a dress everyday. I can kind of see where she’s coming from. Gender Can I just say that gender is kind of confusing. Like, yeah it’s cultural, but it must be more than that, cuz of trans people and stuff. I mean, people actually change their bodies to match their gender. And Savage Love last week had a letter from a guy who was born intersexed, but … Continue reading <\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"activitypub_content_warning":"","activitypub_content_visibility":"","activitypub_max_image_attachments":4,"activitypub_interaction_policy_quote":"anyone","activitypub_status":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1436","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorised"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1436","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1436"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1436\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3688,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1436\/revisions\/3688"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1436"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1436"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1436"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nSo when I was an undergrad and some folks started coming out as trans, it was something I wanted to think about, but Christi was having none of it. she did not want to date aboy and if I became one, she would leave me. So I liked her and I wasn’t sure and anyway, I was at a women’s college and I liked beign surrounded by women and feeling like I was among my people, so I didn’t go there. If I had gone there, maybe I’d be a boy now? Who knows. My first girlfriend is a boy now and a bunch of women that I admired or was attracted to or both have switched.
\nLois, in Dykes to Watch Out For<\/em> questions her gender for a while and then lies about being trans becauase she’s annoyed at one fo her friend’s transphobia. Then she comes out as untrans and explains that she enjoys being a girl “in a perverse sort of way.” which is kind of how I feel. I’m finally comfortable with my body, at least for the last few years and I really wasn’t for a long time. So when I write about Joan of Arc being on both sides of some sort of gender binary\/hiearchy, that’s kind of me projecting myself onto my research, which everybody does and in this pomo period we can all be somehwat honest about it. so before I didn’t know whether I was a girl or a boy and now I say that I’m defintely a girl, but maybe I’d rather be a heretic than wear a dress. Does this make me genderqueer? I dunno. I’m about to go put on a tux for queer prom. Seriously, wearing dresses makes me as uncofmortable as hell. It’s not right. It’s not me. It’s like hammering a peg into the wrong shaped hole or something. I used to feel happy when people called me “sir,” but then other times I would be annoyed by it. It’s annoying now.
\nI wanted male privledge, but obviously something more was going on…
\nThis is me sharing too much. goodnight.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"