After Christi didn’t show up, I sent her some email asking her about rescheduling, etc. I thought that she didn’t write back, but I just found her reply hiding amidst supercollider mailing list crap<\/p>\n
She doesn’t want to work it out. not ever.
\nI was a fool to break up with her
\nmaybe this would have happened anyway.
\nI love her. I counted her as the most important thing in my life for a third of my life.
\nMy shrink says that I should let myself feel sad when I feel sad.<\/p>\n
this is so so so wrong. this isn’t supposed to happen. there must be some mistake somewhere. we’re married. we’re supposed to love each other. i was thinking all day about how much i miss her…..
\nalas alas alas alas woe misery
\nit would be very bad to call her right now and i’m not going to do it. very bad. very very bad.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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