{"id":47,"date":"2014-10-19T23:33:00","date_gmt":"2014-10-19T22:33:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/2014\/10\/19\/spoetry\/"},"modified":"2015-06-19T00:22:57","modified_gmt":"2015-06-18T23:22:57","slug":"spoetry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/2014\/10\/19\/spoetry\/","title":{"rendered":"Spoetry"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The following was submitted to the SuperCollider-london email list. I can only assume that it&#8217;s meant to be raw material for creativity:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>\nFitzgerald, when will you learn t<\/p>\n<p>Ing in every family, if one only inquires. Your nerves are over-strained. I wish you&#8217;d go to bed, and let me have some one to see you. You are looking like a ghost. Mrs. Denham. I feel like one. But I am not going to haunt the scene of my crimes any longer. I am going away&#8211;going away! Denham. Well, I&#8217;m going with you, then, to take care of you. We&#8217;ll send Undine somewhere, and go abroad for a while. Mrs. Denham. Oh yes. You can be kind enough, if that were all. Denham. Will you never make peace? Mrs. Denham. The only peace I _can_ make. Denham. What do you mean? Mrs. Denham. I shall trouble you no longer. Denham. My dear girl, don&#8217;t talk like that. It is ghastly. Constance, I must go to Fitzgerald with this wretched drawing. I have to give some directions about the reproduction. I sha&#8217;n&#8217;t be long. Promise me that you won&#8217;t do anything foolish&#8211;that I shall find you here when I come back Mrs. Denham. Yes&#8211;you shall find me here. Denham. That&#8217;s right. (_Goes to settee, and takes up shawl._) And now lie down here, and let me cover you with this shawl. Mrs. Denham. Very well. (_She lies down._) Arthur! Denham. Yes, dear. Mrs. Denham. Kiss me once before you go. Denham. Oh, if I may! (_Kisses her._) My poor Constance! I would give my heart&#8217;s blood to comfort you. And meanwhile I&#8217;ll send you a better thing&#8211;tea. Mrs. Denham. Thank you, dear. You have always tried to be good to me. You could not help being cruel, I suppose. Denham. I want to be good to you always. Well, good-bye, and God bless you! (_Kisses her._) Mrs. Denham. God bless you! (_Exit Denham._) Mrs. Denham. (_listens for a while, then starts up_) He had tears in his eyes when he kissed me. Poor Arthur! he thinks we are going to patch it up, I suppose. I am to live on pity&#8211;a man&#8217;s pity, more akin to contempt than to love. Why _should_ he love me? I was not born to be loved, not made to be loved. And yet I wanted love so much. I wanted all or nothing, and I have got pity&#8211;pity that puts you in a madhouse, and comfortably leaves you to rot! Oh, my God! is this madness&#8211;this horror of darkness that seems pressing on my brain? (_A knock at the d&lt;!DOCTYPE HTML PUBLIC &#8220;-\/\/W3C\/\/DTD HTML 4.01 Transitional\/\/EN&#8221;&gt;<\/p>\n<p>\/*  and sees a sk *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* hat yo *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* re&#8217;s alw *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* olitics. The b *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* ght, I t *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* y arms? To me it *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* e? Den *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/*  solace myself with  *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p> Fitzgerald, when will you learn t\n<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>And another one:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>the whiteness of her<\/p>\n<p>Hink she could have got hardened in that little while to do what she&#8217;s done.&#8221; &#8220;I know&#8211;I know that,&#8221; said Adam. &#8220;I thought she was loving and tender-hearted, and wouldn&#8217;t tell a lie, or act deceitful. How could I think any other way? And if he&#8217;d never come near her, and I&#8217;d married her, and been loving to her, and took care of her, she might never ha&#8217; done anything bad. What would it ha&#8217; signified&#8211;my having a bit o&#8217; trouble with her? It &#8216;ud ha&#8217; been nothing to this.&#8221; &#8220;There&#8217;s no knowing, my lad&#8211;there&#8217;s no knowing what might have come. The smart&#8217;s bad for you to bear now: you must have time&#8211;you must have time. But I&#8217;ve that opinion of you, that you&#8217;ll rise above it all and be a man again, and there may good come out of this that we don&#8217;t see.&#8221; &#8220;Good come out of it!&#8221; said Adam passionately. &#8220;That doesn&#8217;t alter th&#8217; evil: HER ruin can&#8217;t be undone. I hate that talk o&#8217; people, as if there was a way o&#8217; making amends for everything. They&#8217;d more need be brought to see as the wrong they do can never be altered. When a man&#8217;s spoiled his fellow-creatur&#8217;s life, he&#8217;s no right to comfort himself with thinking good may come out of it. Somebody else&#8217;s good doesn&#8217;t alter her shame and misery.&#8221; &#8220;Well, lad, well,&#8221; said Bartle, in a gentle tone, strangely in contrast with his usual peremptoriness and impatience of contradiction, &#8220;it&#8217;s likely enough I talk foolishness. I&#8217;m an old fellow, and it&#8217;s a good many years since I was in trouble myself. It&#8217;s easy finding reasons why other folks should be patient.&#8221; &#8220;Mr. Massey,&#8221; said Adam penitently, &#8220;I&#8217;m very hot and hasty. I owe you something different; but you mustn&#8217;t take it ill of me.&#8221; &#8220;Not I, lad-<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;<br \/>\nEste mensaje no contiene virus ni malware porque la protecci?n de avast! Antivirus est? activa.<br \/>\n\/* re as well as u *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/*  and ditching, and showed but  *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* ef. A grin of delig *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p> \/*  in the chimney-corner a *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* lf-engrossed l *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* rs wherei *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/*  more of her than o *\/<br ><br \/>\n  \/* ng to buy and sell more s *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p>span.jaundicing \/* ck lest they s *\/<br ><br \/>\nspan.overstride \/* little uns *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* &#8216; been *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* d not d *\/<br ><br \/>\nspan.subverting \/* must have Meg sad *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* Irwine&#8217;s feeling,  *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* Coat, with a face a shade re *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p>a.speeding, span.truing \/* . He was ready to pitch  *\/<br ><br \/>\n\/* d the vision was that in his dr *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* y the pale mother, a  *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p>a.synchronize, span.toddlers \/* e o&#8217; what she did.&#8221; Set *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p>\/*  master&#8217;s mental sta *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p> \/* ty landl *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p>\/*  longest and q *\/<br ><br \/>\na.fingerer, span.gullibly<br ><\/p>\n<p>\/* ..I thou *\/<br ><br \/>\na.stound, span.snakes<br ><\/p>\n<p>a.reitemises:hover { color: #0000ff; }<br ><br \/>\n\/* bibliopegist saprozoic homelike *\/<br ><br \/>\np,ul,ol \/*  man t&#8217; urge you against y *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p> \/* ch a g *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/* gold and pearls and  *\/<br ><br \/>\n \/*  done it all herself, wit *\/<br ><br \/>\n.strumpet \/* s. For we  *\/<br ><\/p>\n<p>the whiteness of her<br \/>\n&lt;p class=strumpet&gt;<\/p>\n<p>Hin\n<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>I&#8217;ve done some editing, removing bits of HTML and the spam links, but there may be masterpieces in your spam trap, awaiting discovery<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The following was submitted to the SuperCollider-london email list. I can only assume that it&#8217;s meant to be raw material for creativity: Fitzgerald, when will you learn t Ing in every family, if one only inquires. Your nerves are over-strained. I wish you&#8217;d go to bed, and let me have some one to see you. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/2014\/10\/19\/spoetry\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Spoetry<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"activitypub_content_warning":"","activitypub_content_visibility":"","activitypub_max_image_attachments":4,"activitypub_interaction_policy_quote":"anyone","activitypub_status":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[45,46],"class_list":["post-47","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorised","tag-spam","tag-spoetry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=47"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2234,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47\/revisions\/2234"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=47"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=47"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=47"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}