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well, i did pretty piss poor on my oral exam. (Imagine this exchange filled with ums and massive mispronunciations) \u00abJe vais etudier la musique d’Innas Xenakis.\u00bb \u00abQui est-ce?\u00bb \u00abIl ecrivais musique electronique et musique concrete.\u00bb \u00abMusic concrete<\/em>? Est-ce que musique concrete?\u00bb \u00abuhhhhhh. on uzas umm ‘tape recorder’ . . .\u00bb \u00abMagnetephone\u00bb \u00abon uh us un magnetephone et uhhhhh non non non\u00bb<\/p>\n

Music concrete was a french movement in early tape music where the composer would record real-world sounds and manipulate them (or not_ and splice the results together to create a pice of tape music. It’s a bit beyond me to say that in french. Oh, and “uzas” is esperanto.
\nI’ve got the flu and emailed my professor to ask if I can take the midterm next week. I slept from 2-5 pm today and only got up because Cola made me. I’m about to go back to sleep now.
\nPeople at school said nice things about my hair. I think I might have gone a bit too short. I’m so used to arguing with hair people that I didn’t realize that I should listen to claire. I told her I wanted to look like a boy and then when she was done I said I had wanted shorter. My head looked a lot squarer before she took the rest off, alas. I was kind of hoping at school today that somebody would tell me I was in the wrong bathroom, but actually that would be really awkward and is really unlikely at Berkeley anyway. I’m not sure about this boy thing really. Today a guy grabbed my study notes without asking and started copying them. I know not all boys are assholes but so many are. Although I’m already kind of obtuse and demanding. My plan right now is to try going out in drag a few times to see how it fits. Except I am never going to pass for a boy. I sooo don’t have time to worry about this. In fact, I really want to nap.
\nOne story first though. When I was a freshman in highschool, I had worked out that I was queer, but this was very confusing as I was sooo male identified, so in my head, I self-hatingly referred to myself as a ‘fag’ and hurled anti-gay male epithets at myself . . . except I wasn’t a gay male and they didn’t make sense. So I was sort of confusedly thinking of myself as a gay man, which didn’t fit at all. and then I was wondering if I was supposed to be attracted to drag queens or what.
\nThat story would be a lot funnier if I was peppy enough to tell it right. When I recover, I will post a long rumination about Joan of Arc.
\nI feel like such a freak. they need a third set of bathrooms for weirdos who can’t make up their damn minds already.
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well, i did pretty piss poor on my oral exam. (Imagine this exchange filled with ums and massive mispronunciations) \u00abJe vais etudier la musique d’Innas Xenakis.\u00bb \u00abQui est-ce?\u00bb \u00abIl ecrivais musique electronique et musique concrete.\u00bb \u00abMusic concrete? Est-ce que musique concrete?\u00bb \u00abuhhhhhh. on uzas umm ‘tape recorder’ . . .\u00bb \u00abMagnetephone\u00bb \u00abon uh us un … Continue reading update…<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"activitypub_content_warning":"","activitypub_content_visibility":"","activitypub_max_image_attachments":4,"activitypub_interaction_policy_quote":"anyone","activitypub_status":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-999","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorised"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/999","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=999"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/999\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3247,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/999\/revisions\/3247"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=999"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=999"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.celesteh.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=999"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}