Springtime in Paris

Oh my god, It’s NOT cold out!! I feel deliriously happy every time I venture outside. Today I went out without wearing a coat or even a jacket!! People have started sitting outside at cafés again. A (very) few things are blooming. There are new plants appearing in the community garden in the park by the canal. Oh, and it’s gray and rainy pretty much non stop. But my god, it’s not cold!! I don’t feel depressed by the weather anymore! huzzah!

So I had a concert a couple of week ago. 20 or 30 people came. Afterwards, a bunch of them wanted to talk to me. They asked me what exactly I was doing and I showed them my interface (highlight this source code and press enter) and they were impressed in an “oh my god, you wrote all that code for your score??” sort of way. It was widely agreed that I am in need of some sort of visual element or perhaps I should not be on stage. Fine, I need a visible element. Therefore, I am looking for one or two USB keyboards of the typing variety. One I might want to take apart to use the keys as triggers. One I want to strap on like a uber-geeky sh101 and use to control stuff in some sort of obvious way. I’m imagining somehow attacking a keyboard to my tuba such that I can type on it with my left hand.
after playing, I fell ill and then I had class every day 10AM-6pm for many many days in a row. The subject was KYMA. Theoretically, I ought to be able to do something exciting with it . . .. but the cost. KYMA is a hardware/software solution for doing sound processing. The hardware is a DSP co-processor. Actually, more like 128 co-processors, all of which have extremely fast memory access, so your sound code never gets hung up on memory starvation or interrupts. This means that it does things like pitch detection much more accurately and correctly. The delay is like 3ms. It’s way fast and it won’t max out like my little laptop does sometimes when I write sloppy code. However, it’s like 5k for an entry-level model. If I needed things within 3ms, that would be one thing, but I don’t. Also, big and heavy. And finally, the programming interface is extremely graphical. It’s very well done and extremely user friendly, but there’s no way to get around it and just type what you want. I hate graphical interfaces to programming languages unless they can be defeated when I want to defeat them. And really finally, it is not adept at doing the sort of list processing that I am wont to do. Why does nobody think in terms of arrays like I think of arrays? Why am I always struggling against how other people view arrays? Why are the most obvious array accessing methods (such as pbinds) never well-suited to what I want to do? Arrays should evolve, people! The contents of an iteration through an array should be changed based on the last thing that happened. I’m switching to LISP. not really.
So I’ve decided that the time has come to do something with wavesets in supercollider. A waveset is a concept invented by Trevor Wishart and described in his book audible Design. Basically, it’s a set of two zero crossings. Picture a sine wave or an audio wave. You start at zero, the wave goes up, reaches a maximum and then goes back down to zero, then it continues below zero, reaches a minimum and head back up to zero. This is one period of a wave. Wishart terms it a waveset and notes several things one can do with a waveset. For instance, audio waves usually don’t look too much like the sine wave you probably just pictured. However, you could replace the bumpy real waves with sinusoidal ones. And you could do this in real time. And if you know of pre-existing supercollider Ugens that do this, I would like to know about them. Real-time programming makes my brain hurt. There’s not a single problem with it that I can’t figure out how to solve, provided I can peek into the future. Why is time not more fungible? So I’m “writing” a UGen, where “writing” means furrowing my brow, making incomprehensible doodles on scratch paper and reading source for other UGens.
Other news: I haven’t heard anything from the company that wanted to hire me since I sent them a salary demand. Alas. So I basically have no idea what I’m doing when my lease runs out in a couple of months. Do I look for a new place because I’ll have a job or do I hit the road? Also, maybe I might do the year long program at Sonology in Den Haag. They have a very late application deadline, which is good, but I dunno about Den Haag. It’s not as exciting as Paris, but on the other hand, I would actually have some sort of “in” to the music scene, which is more than I have here. Also, it’s still cold there.
I met somebody last night who had lived in the Bay Area for 5 years. She started talking about redwood trees. So we spoke of trees, the coast, banana slugs. I thought of how pretty it was. Everything has already gone into bloom, I’m sure, and the farmer’s markets are full of strawberries and most of my friends and family lives there and yikes, homesickness. (I don’t often speak about missing my friends, this is because I am trying not think about it, not because I don’t.) My dear friend Jean got bit by a tick and got a weird rash about it. I comment in her blog “go see a doctor!!” I wrote. She did. It cost $135. You can get dental surgery in a hospital for about that amount here, not counting prescriptions. How the hell are people with insurance supposed to fork over $135? For most people, it’s not a question of if they get sick, but when. Most folks will have at least one major illness in their life. How are they supposed to pay for it if just a tick bite costs $135? And also, Bush is president and Ahnold is governator and SF is the next NOLA when the big one hits and living in the US sitting on the edge of a precarity. We all know the big one is going to come and knock down our house. And we know that no insurance company or government or anyone who holds the public trust is going to do a damn thing about it. None of these questions are “if.” They’re “when.” Added to this, there is no real support for the arts. So I don’t want to go home. Except that I do.
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Lotsa riots this year

So 64 of 84 total universities in France are on strike. Including to Sorbonne, where Cola studies, but not her program. They’ve been having riots today and maybe the last few days. Apparently some cars are on fire. You know, the French love cars, almost as much as Californians love cars. But they seem to love to burn them as much as they love to drive them.

How are these riots connected to the riots of November? Glad you asked. As you may know, minorities, especially minority youth around the Paris suburbs get hassled and beaten by the police. They also have exceedingly high unemployment rates. All of France has high youth unemployment. The wise leadership decided the riots were not caused by police brutality or racism, but by rap music and over-regulation of workers. Yes, clearly the youth would get hired more often if they could be fired at will for any or no reason. Also, staying in school past 8th grade is a luxury for the upper classes. So they lowered ages for mandatory school attendance and passed something called the CPE.
The CPE says that you can fire folks under 26 for the first few years of them having a new job. What’s to stop businesses from just replacing new 24 year olds every 2 years? Nothing. What protects young workers who want to join or form a union or whose bosses desire sexual favors? Not very much (especially since women, along with minorities, are disproportionately unemployed.) Would a bank want to loan money to somebody with the possibility of losing their job at any moment? Not in France. Are landlords down with this? Not so much. Do folks want to live at home until they’re 26? no.
Nobody is happy with this law. More than 2/3rds of France is against it. but nobody in power wants to admit making a mistake, so it is not repealed yet. Meanwhile, the universities are mostly out on strike and more and more high schools are striking. Kids are throwing molotov cocktails at stuff. The kids in the suburbs in November mostly just burned cars at night. The middle class college kids torch presses, cars and maybe some flics during broad daylight! The youth unrest has spread.
There’s a huuuge protest planned for Saturday… someplace. I kind of want to go, as I am in solidarity with French students (hey, I’m a French student!) and workers, but I don’t want to be in a riot. Also, I don’t know where it’s going to be.
The November riots were mostly in the suburbs (although there were signs of a molotov cocktail a couple of doors down from me) and so were not something threatening my safety. These new batches of riots are in the center areas of town: swanky, posh places. Again, not so much effecting my personal safety. So if you’re prone to worrying, there’s no need on my behalf. Also, for all these riots and burnings, very few people seem to actually get hurt.
I’ve also been on strike from school from monday morning until this afternoon, but that was mostly as I had the flu. I’m better now, although we’ll see how I feel tomorrow after staying up so late. The problem with being sick is that one sleeps so much and at such weird times and then are awake feeling at odd times for the next few days after recovery.
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Students in France

Apparently, the Sorbonne and 7 other Universities in France and completely shut down by a strike while 40 more (of the 84 total) universities are partially on strike. I know this because I read it in the news this morning. Apparently, none of the strikers thought to block or even inform the French as a Foreign Language students in their building down the street. So Cola has not been striking. She has not chanted slogans. She has not sat down in traffic and blocked major thoroughfares. She has not piled up furniture in the center of the university to block the path of police. She has not thrown fire extinguishers or other heavy objects down onto the heads of gendarmes. She has not been cleared out of buildings with tears gas. Nor has she declared her solidarity with the sans-papiers. It’s disappointing, really.

The students are upset about something called the CPE. It’s a proposed change to the labor law which would give workers under the age of 26 fewer rights, but still more than they have in the US. Because the US labor law sucks. Who would want it? Anyway, France has something of a reputation for this sort of thing, but this is the first time the Sorbonne has been occupied since 1968. There has been way more youth unrest these last few months than there has been in a mighty long time. It’s a cause for concern, as there wouldn’t be all this ruckus if things were going well.
French students have unions. Not like the student union, where you can go get a cup of coffee, but like unions with meetings and whatnot. American students need unions!
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Tonight

Text sound poetry and electronic noise. In English and French. Presented by Celeste HUTCHINS, an American composer, and by la Barbare.

Women only!

21:00, Saturday, 11 Mars 2006

46 rue Gambetta
93100 Montreuil
Metro: Croix de Chavaux

Most of the folks I know personally aren’t coming. I think some people who are coming expect techno music, which is not what they will get at all. Anyway, you should come because I’m worried that nobody will show up at all, and I foolishly printed 50 programs and I wrote two new pieces of music for this. Or rather, I wrote one new piece of music and translated another into French. The nice thing about writing programs to create music is that I had somebody read Meditations pour les Femmes and then put the recording into the pre-existing program and it worked perfectly!
Several pieces have been changed to be based on the oscillations of European voltage, rather than North American, which causes changes. (In the US, I work with multiples of 60Hz, because 60Hz hum is all around us and ingrained in our psyche. Here, it’s 50Hz. One of my pieces changes significantly based on this change.) And, of course, the spatialization will be set up for the space, so it really will be different than sitting at home and listening to my podcast. Even though I just sit behind my laptop and watch my programs go.
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Une question pour les francophones

I would like recordings of women who are fluent french speakers answering the question “Est-ce que tu es feministe? Pourquoi ou pourquoi pas?” in french, of course. If you want to do it, email me a recording in any for mat to celesteh at gmail dot com.

Je cherche des enregistrements de femmes, pendant qu’elles donnent de la réponse à la question “Est-ce que tu es feministe? Pourquoi ou pourquoi pas?”. En français, si vous plait. Si vous voulez participer, envoyez l’enregistrement à celesteh à gmail point com.
Participants will be thanked in program notes and will get a recording of the finished musical piece
Des femmes vont recevoir mes remerciements et l’enregistrement de le morceau de musique que je vais creer avec ses voix.
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Everybody sing now!

I’m proud to be an American
Cuz my womb is property
I’ll never forget the men who voted
To make it that way for me

Just saw a video about politics in South Dakota (you too can watch at PBS or via Susie Bright). Well. wow. Here are some choice excerpts for the transcript:

FRED DE SAM LAZARO: Napoli says most abortions are performed for what he calls “convenience.” He insists that exceptions can be made for rape or incest under the provision that protects the mother’s life. I asked him for a scenario in which an exception may be invoked.

BILL NAPOLI: A real-life description to me would be a rape victim, brutally raped, savaged. The girl was a virgin. She was religious. She planned on saving her virginity until she was married. She was brutalized and raped, sodomized as bad as you can possibly make it, and is impregnated. I mean, that girl could be so messed up, physically and psychologically, that carrying that child could very well threaten her life.

Digby pretty much says already everything to be said about that: “Certainly, we know that if she wasn’t a virgin, she was asking for it, so she should be punished with forced childbirth. . . .. I suspect many hours have been spent luridly contemplating the brutal, savage rape and sodomy (as bad as it can be) of a religious virgin and how terrible it would be for her. It seems quite clear in his mind. ”
Back to the transcript:

STATE REP. ELAINE ROBERTS (D), SOUTH DAKOTA: We’ve chipped, and chipped, and chipped; now we’re here with this full fledge. What will be next? What will be next?

FRED DE SAM LAZARO: Democratic Representative Elaine Roberts is one of South Dakota’s few pro-choice legislators. What’s next, she fears, is a host of measures that regulate women’s private lives.

ELAINE ROBERTS: We already have a law that says that pharmacists by conscience could refuse to fill my prescription for contraceptives. There is already a move from some groups who have worked on this to say that there should be no contraceptives, that sexual intercourse is for the purpose of reproduction.

A return to traditional values

FRED DE SAM LAZARO: Much of what she fears as an assault on basic rights Senator Napoli sees as a return to traditional values.

BILL NAPOLI: When I was growing up here in the wild west, if a young man got a girl pregnant out of wedlock, they got married, and the whole darned neighborhood was involved in that wedding. I mean, you just didn’t allow that sort of thing to happen, you know? I mean, they wanted that child to be brought up in a home with two parents, you know, that whole story. And so I happen to believe that can happen again.

So, right, if you have sex, no contraception for you. If you get pregnant and are unmarried, “the whole darned neighborhood” is going to force you to marry the father of your fetus. Is he abusive? Drunk? All wrong for you? Tough! Because, unless you were a virgin and this guy fulfilled Sen Napoli’s darkest fantasies, you HAVE to have this kid and you HAVE to marry this guy. Or will the forced marriage bill make an exception for rape?
Marital rape is illegal in every state in the United States. Not because of a federal law. Not because of a court case. But because incredibly determined activists got the law passed separately in every single state. This is the next logical target of South Dakota, where women are clearly property. And as goes South Dakota, so goes the nation. (Time to cancel that trip to Mt Rushmore.)
Oh and this being a “states rights” issue is clearly bullshit because the first the US Congress is going to do if this gets past the Supreme Court is pass a bunch of laws. First Roe Vs Wade, then Griswold.
And this, my friends, is why I don’t want to return to the US. I miss my friends and a lot of things, but I like freedom too. Freedom means human rights. It means a right to privacy. It means a right to health care.
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Job Offer

So if we agree on salary, I’ve got a job. How much should one expect for 19.5 hours/week of web monkeyness in Paris? It’s some ASP and helping people figure stuff out. Part time office geek. Why does nobody list salary ranges on craig’s list? Anyway, if it works out, they might be interested in helping me stay for another year. I explained that I was not alone in France, and they seemed interested in Cola’s skill set and said they could at least give her connections to find a job if not hire her.

Whee! I will soon join the ranks (hopefully) of those who leave their house nearly every day. They want to know how much I can work in the summer. I need to talk to Cola . . ..
I dunno about another year here. On the one hand, I like the friends I’ve made, I can get my dog mailed to me (maybe), I like a secular government and adequate healthcare (for contrast, check out this NYT article about immigrant healthcare in the US. Including legal immigrants, not that it should make any difference whatsoever.). Yeah, it’s nice to live in a country that believes in human rights. But I left my heart in San Francisco. Actually, I think in berkeley. Or maybe it’s my tuba I’m thinking of. Why can’t California be more like France? Or why can’t France be more like California?
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