Buying a coat

It hit zero today, as I wined earlier, but fortunately, I had the foresight to go out yesterday and buy a coat. It took most of the day, alas. I’m skinny, but with long arms and I didn’t want to spend too much. Before, I left for here, I posted something about wanting to get as many clothes as possible before I left, because of not knowing what it would be like to cross-shop. Oh, what a fool I was.

First of all, only one guy gave me a kind of disgusted look and that was the extent of anything negative. Much better than home. (People are reading me as female now because my hair has gotten longer.) Also: blazer-type jackets for sale at every store. In velvet(ine). In corduroy. In my size. Picture: blue velvet blazer. Royal blue!! Oh my god!!!!! There was a whole store for very scrawny slightly femme-y guys who still wanted to dress like it’s still the mid-to-late 90’s! I was a size medium there! They had tweed jackets with elbow patches, something I spent months looking for!!! For only 230€, ahem, yes. I had to leave without buying anything because it was lovely, but it was just too much money.
There’s a store called the C&A which has ads in the metro where they show whatever their featured sale item is. This week it’s a black corduroy jacket for 30€. I’m going back to buy one tomorrow, but their coat selection, alas, didn’t fit me well. But every fashion in the store was really nifty, as far as I could tell. A city where I can shop for men’s clothes where it isn’t suspect for men to wear anything other than trainers or sweatsuits!
Anyway, after a lot of looking, I walked into a fairly fancy-seeming store and tried on a tweed coat in a size medium. It was too big. But a sales person came over to help me. At home, I try to duck sales people because they’re not entirely friendly. The woman clearly thought it was a little odd that I wanted to try on men’s coats, but was happy to help. She went and found me a size small coat in black. It fit very well. I bought it. At the register, she went through the script, kind of laughing as she did so. Did I want men’s gloves to go with my men’s coat? How about some men’s dress socks? She would have smiled and sold me some if I’d said yes. We chatted a bit in frenglish. She wanted to know how to say, “would you like anything else?” in english.
Sometimes, it’s really good to be foreign. I have no idea about modern french cross dressers and what their experiences are like (I’ve seen some around in bars and whatnot, but not had a conversation). But I think I get away with a lot because I’m foreign and people expect me to be kind of different. That’s true in Paris and it’s also true in Nebraska.
Anyway, I have never before enjoyed shopping for clothes that I can remember. Right now, I am pondering buying a whole new wardrobe. And coming to Paris from anyplace else in the world when I need clothes.
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Pdf tool for mac?

I have many of the UC application documents in PDF form, however I don’t have easy access to a printer. Can anyone recommend me a free application which would allow me to type on the pdf? The preview application’s annotation function seems insufficient. I want to be able to modify the pdf and save it in pdf format. Must run on OSX 10.4. X windows ok.

My network is crashy crashy crashy and it goes down for a day and then comes back. bah.
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Diversity

“In an essay, discuss how your personal background informs your decision to pursue a graduate degree. Please include any educational, familial,
cultural, economic, or social experiences, challenges, or opportunities relevant to your academic journey; how you might contribute to social
or cultural diversity within your chosen field; and/or how you might serve educationally underrepresented segments of society with your degree.”

Well, I have a vagina, therefore, I can make almost any gathering of composers more diverse. And I’m as queer as a 3 euro coin. And I don’t really want to write an essay about how I have a vagina and am as queer as 3 euro coin, but I also want to go to your school very much. It’s not that I don’t value diversity, it’s that I don’t feel comfortable having certain labels pinned to me and I guess I could be a poster boi for queers, but I’m really not in the mood to talk about how i could one day be a positive female role model for future generations, which is what I think that they mean by social diversity. Also, I mean, it’s very clear to me that every music department is enhanced by having feminist genderqueers as TAs or professors, but maybe they’re trying to ask about class issues. How liberal is UC these days, anyway?
I just want to be one of the guys.
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Oh boy, college applications!

“Describe the degree of your proficiency (reading, speaking, and writing) in languages other than English. List courses you have taken in each language. ”

French: I can slowly read a newspaper. I can ask the man at the fromagerie to recommend a cheese and the guy at the electronics store for a computer power cable. I can write a note to my landlord. I’ve taken french 1 & 2
Esperanto: I passed my language exam at Wesleyan University in Esperanto. I can read a magazine if I have a dictionary handy. I can tell some puns that I know. I can write a note asking for tech support. I audited the Esperanto class at Stanford.
German: I cannot read a newspaper because the compound words are insane. I can explain that I’m a vegetarian and give directions on how one might get out of a catacomb if one were frightened of caves but decided to take a tour anyway wherein the tour guide only spoke Italian and English and the phobic individual spoke only German. I took German House in college
I don’t think this is exactly what they want.
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Yay, Cola fixed the internet

Everybody complains about hold music. How often is it the worst of elevator music’s greatest hits or jazz so smooth you would swear it wasn’t ethnically other or soft rock so soft, it’s not rock or major key movements of overplayed symphonies played at 75% speed or some other form of musical torture?

I’m pleased to report that this is not the situation in France. I’m not being subject to any form of piped music except the 10 second melody that plays under the French version of “please hold” over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again

Better or worse than Kenny G playing the Ode to Joy on flute (with piano and drum set accompaniment) in largo?

Hm, I think the tech support guy just lied to me. I wish I spoke French better. It’s a normal update, he said. Wait one day and it will fix itself.

Perhaps monkeys will also fly out of it.

Weasely, lying tech support! I’m used to being lied to by French service workers but I’m not sure what to do in this case. If one bank says what you want is impossible, go to the one across the street. I can’t just change ISPs, though. I guess I’ll call back tomorrow when it hasn’t started functioning again. Or if it does magically work again, I’ll type an apology out 100 times and post it.

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I am offline

Last night, my network box freaked out and now it’s in the land of the error-mode. The LEDs are blinking on and off, a few times a second. One possibility is a DSL error. The other is a configuration error. The box’s main connection mode is via USB, which requires special drivers. Quite frankly, the box is a piece of shit and mac support was most likely an afterthought. I don’t want to install the drivers on my lovely development / DAW machine. I was trying to figure out if it would be ethical to convince Cola to install them, but I’ve just remembered the existence of the reset button. Huzzah! If it’s a config error, then reset will fix it. Otherwise, well, maybe I forgot to pay my bill or something. The english-language telephone line opens again on monday.

It’s highly likely that it’s a config problem, since it crashed while I was trying to add my friend to the network. (Which reminds me that he would like to point out that universities are open campuses and we were not trespassing the other day. ok.) I would like to point again that the I have to pay 1 or 3€ a month extra for this thing and it’s config interface is broooooken even under the best circumstances. bah.
So I post from school. It doesn’t matter, since I’m doing music on my laptop anyway. I used to come to school to be offline . . . . .
I’m not happy to be offline, but it’s nice having Cola’s attention in the morning, rather than her nose buried in the New York Times online.
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GrainPIC

I have been working on a very silly Xenakis-influenced graphical cloud synthesis program. The working Alpha version is far enough along that I can release it into the wild. Improvements, like being able to save, will be forthcoming. If there is adequate interest, (ha!) I’ll put this on sourceforge or something, so it’s easier to get updates.

This program is so cutting edge, that you will need to download a build from today or newer from Wesleyan to run this. Grab the one called Most Recent Build if the file size looks reasonable. (around 6.2 mb or larger.)
There are two files: scribble.rtf and Cloud.sc. The best place to put Cloud.sc is ~/Library/Application Support/SuperCollider/Extensions/Les/ (create it if it doesn’t exist) or, alternately, you can drop it in SC/SCClassLibrary.
To run: after you’ve put Cloud.sc in the appropriate place, start the SuperCollider application. Hit the boot button on the localhost server window. Open scribble.rtf. Select all. Hit enter (not return, they’re different keys). Start drawing in the big scribble window. To change parameters, hit the draw / edit button. You need to click it when it says “edit” to go into edit mode (I’ll fix this soon) and then click inside a shape. A dialog box will come up, which you can use to change parameter for that one shape only (group select is coming soon). To play, click the button that looks like [ > ].
Rain Clouds is an mp3 created with this toy . . . err, tool, I mean.
Obviously, this is open source. The cloud shapes do not need to control granular objects. Cloud’s instance variable, settings, should be an instance of the Conductor class. Therefore, you can change all of their settings and what the parameters mean. Use the shapes to control filters or anything else where a high and low frequency boundary change over time! Standard software disclaimers apply.
Have funs

Update:

GrainPIC page is here
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Strange women just kissed me on the metro

Ah, so I was coming home from school, when the train pulled into a station filled with excited youths. They were jumping up and down, drinking champagne and singing. They got into the train car behind mine and started jumping up and down so the whole car was shaking. One woman, sitting near the window facing into my car, looked alarmed.

Some of the youths were wearing what looked like sports jerseys. There was drinking, confetti and merriment and jumping up and down and hammering on the inside of the car. When the train pulled into the next station, they all streamed, screaming, out of their car and ran to other cars on the train. A large number of them were soon standing near me. They sang a song that included the words “bon soir [something that sounded like école].” They seemed to be early college age.
Some attractive young women decided to greet me and the other students of my school. “Bon soir!” they said and kisses us all in turn. On the cheek, which is a normal french greeting.
I blushed.
At the next stop, they ran around again. This continued until Bastille, and then they all got off and headed off to party someplace else aside from the metro.
They’re students, but I don’t know what was going on aside from that. One blasé older man shrugged as the kids disembarked at Bastille. «C’est le weekend.»
Indeed. Happy whatever holiday tomorrow is!
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There’s lots of good reasons to quit coffee

here was even some evidence that women who drank lots of coffee — four or more daily cups of regular or decaf — faced a slightly lower risk for developing high blood pressure than those who drank little or none.

Winkelmayer said that may be because coffee has lots of antioxidants, substances which are thought to help protect the heart and reduce risks of cancer.

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/n/a/2005/11/08/national/a132928S65.DTL&feed=rss.news
Too bad it makes me all jumpy and stressed and . . . . I’m going to go brew myself some coffeeeeeee right nooooowwwww
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