update

Wesleyan health services does indeed have a copy of my immunization records . . . in storage. they can’t guarantee that they can send them monday. maybe tuesday morning, which means tuesday evening for me. *sigh* alas. well, at least i can tell the french doctors that i will have the required paperwork.

In other news, my house is still filthy, although somewhat improved. the power adaptor in the living room doesn’t cause much computer noise (is it the power outlet or the adaptor that’s better?). the weather was warm and nice today, but i only left the house twice, both times to go to the fax place and then buy a baguette on the way home. i think the bakery with the better baguettes has dessert items that don’t look as good as the other bakery (two doors down). I may have to buy eclairs at each and determine who wins, you know, in the interest of science.
I read in the rough guide that per kilometer, Paris has a higher population density than Tokyo, which probably explains why there are three bakeries within half a block of my building. It does not however, explain the 5 or so cell phone stores. You need a new baguette every day (at least). How often do you need a new cell phone?
I’m a bit lonely without Yuri here anymore. She left yesterday at an ungodly early hour. I went back to look at my blog from when Wesleyan had just started and it’s exactly the same, trying to get a bank account, paperwork snafus (including with vaccination records), forgotten bills going to collections (ack), not knowing anyone, being nervous etc. And then I got insanely busy with crazy amounts of school work. So maybe I’ll get insanely busy soon, although I hope not too insane.
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The french government

Just sent me a letter saying it needs all of my medical records. on tuesday.

It would be really handy if the consulate could have given me a list of things I would need to bring. I mean, maybe it should have occurred to me that I would need a birth certificate and my vaccination records, but I’ve never lived abroad before. They just said I would need my school letter.
i had to get a shot for measles in 2003 because I couldn’t find my paperwork saying I had ever gotten the second one. Of course I had, but my mom always kept documents like that . . .
I’m going to join some religion which doesn’t believe in getting shots.
So my plan is to call wesleyan tomorrow and see if they have my records, since they made me get a @!$@#!$ shot. If they don’t, my plan is to cry.
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Electrical Questions

So when I plug my computer into my source of power in my bedroom, it starts making a lot of noise, I think from the fan, but I’m not sure (it does not seem to be the hard disk, it might be somewhat from the speakers, i can’t tell). When I unplug it from the wall, it reverts to silence. The strange (high pitchy brown noise) is definitely connected to being plugged in to the wall: It’s plugged into an ungrounded outlet: a little skinny plug with an adaptor to make it a fake three prong plug, going to an extension cord, to a splitter, to the skinny two prong apple adaptor that could fit into the starting outlet.

  1. Is this bad for my computer?
  2. Will plugging my powered monitor speakers into this same (ungrounded) power source murder them dead or harm them?

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Where there’s smoke and an Ode to Baguettes

Fumer Tue

If I make it through this year without becoming a pack a day smoker, it may be a miracle. Everyone smokes all the damn time. And when we have a break from class, everyone is smoking. Social smokers become real smokers with frightening speed. Every time folks are smoking, I want to bum one, but I must not. Nicole’s little pack of social smokes that caught me last week have left me wanting more, like after having a coffee in the morning for a couple of days in a row. Anyway, these folks in my class are almost all Americans, so they have no excuse. I have no excuse. Must not start smoking!

Oh, my beloved baguette

Crunchy on the outside, chewy on the inside, so long and play-weapon like. I can buy you across the street from my house and take you home fresh, baked within the last day. I can tear your end off as I walk down the street and eat your heel. I can eat you with cheese or alone or with tomatoes or with my soup and tear you or slice you. What will I do when I return to berkeley? I will have to move across from a bakery. I don’t know how I lived without you coming into my house fresh every day. Never again will we be long parted!
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Art and the First Day of School and Stuff

Art

So I went to Nuit Blanche and I’ve had to spend the last few days thinking before I could post about it. I went to the fêtê part of it, which I think means party. And party it was. There were folks doing really really loud pop music drumming stuff and there were women in g-strings dancing to said drumming. I went first to Saint Eustache, where I caught a short part of the all-night-long series of organ concerts. The church has really hugely high celings and incredible reverberation. The organist gave a short talk before she played, which I couldn’t really understand and she had to speak very very very slowly because of the many-seconds long delay. It’s a great atmosphere for a pipe organ, though. Those churches are why pipe organ pieces are they way they are: big, long and slow. She played one piece by Tchaikovsky which I really liked. It had short dramatic bursts like the orchestra hits in Rite of Spring but they were getting eaten by the space and the effect was more or less in vain. It did build up a nice sound mass throughout and was big and dramatic by the end, which worked exceedingly in the space.

I went out and wandered around for a while. I walked by a gallery and somebody explained that a band was playing with video projection. It was a drummer / saxophonist, an orgasm singer / trumpet player, a guitar player / fx box wanker and another fx box wanker, as far as I can remember. The room was pretty dark anyway. The band seemed to be following the video, but not to the point where it was a score or anything. The video consisted of repeating images, many of them interesting: a monument in the middle of water, a woman standing in the same position in all her shots, across the street from the camera person, 50 meters to the left of where she was just standing, scooting down the street, a LOT of pictures of porn. The porn flashed by really fast, but the video editor had positioned them so that all the naked women were about the same size, facing the same way and engaged in the same act. So first was a bunch of maybe single or double frame stills of naked women, then anal sex, then, well, you get the idea. All of this was mixed in with footage of candle light vigils and what looked like home movies (with a really nice camera) of military presence around Ground Zero in NYC very shortly after the towers fell. The performance felt like it was over an hour long, but I wasn’t keeping track of the time. I don’t know what the images have to do with each other. Candle light vigils and 9/11 I get, but why the porn? They do realize that three thousand people fucking died in the wreckage that makes such nice background for wanking guitar fx and orgasm sounds, right? Maybe I just missed some very obvious point that everyone else in the room got about capitalism, culture and tragedy or something.
It was during the middle of that show that I remembered that I left my gas turned on. My stove has a gas valve on the back of it that I have to turn off after I cook. It seems weird, but the landlord made such a big deal about it in the rental contract and put in all caps and underlines NO BURNING CANDLES. TURN OFF GAS AFTER COOKING or something and there are no smoke alarms anywhere, that it must actually be important. A few nights ago I was watching the movie of the week and the main character’s house blew up because she forgot to turn off the gas. So, um, should I be really paranoid or keep wandering?
I went by the Pompidou Center, but the line had hundreds of people in it. The whole area around Des Halles and St Eustache and the Pompidou was mobbed with wall to wall people. It’s nice to see Parisians taking in their own city. I mean, like San Franciscans, they avoid tourist areas unless there’s something worthwhile going on there. Out by Les Halles, there was an odd installation that included a video projector, a sort of spaceship looking thing, women growling on it and what looked live somebody using it either for emergency medical treatment, or a doctor was examining his shoe. I didn’t want to stare in case it was the former. Ok, right . . .. That and thong dancers. I decided to go home and turn of the gas and then go on to the more serious-art looking listings closer to my house. But it was still kind of early and I had tons of energy, since I had prepared for the night by drinking coffee all day and sleeping in that morning. I’ll just check my email first. Ooh, big crowds. Maybe I’ll just set up podcasting before I go back out. When I finished configuring the server, five hours later, I leaned back from my computer and heard a thunder clap and rush of rain. So I went to bed.
I remembered the horrific lines from the free event at the Pompidou and didn’t even try to go to the Louvre.

Stuff

Yuri flew in Sunday night and we hung out yesterday and walked around. We went to the poetry reading at Shakespeare and company. We went there earlier in the day to pick up an english-language free magazine that lists events and stuff. I talked to the woman in charge of the poetry series. She seemed very interested when I described my stuff. Seemed to want to book me for next monday(!). I didn’t know my class schedule, but I dropped off a CD for her last night. Hopefully, she will email me about it soon.

First day of school

Class started late because of a metro strike. (Yay Paris!) The teacher told us to all introduce ourselves. John went first. I’m paraphrasing even thought I’m using double quotes (as always). “I have a MA in composition. I play tuba. I’m really into this stuff called Text Sound Poetry . . ..” Dood, that’s my line! Yeah, so neither of us brought a tuba, but both of us brought mouthpieces just in case. He plays a Sanders piggy CC tuba. If you’ve ever seen my tuba and you’re wondering that a Sanders CC Piggy looks like, well, that’s what I play. We play the exact same kind of horn. It’s creeping me out. Mine has five valves though and his doesn’t, since the thumb trigger on mine was a non-standard after-market thing. We don’t have the same kind of mouthpiece at least.
Yeah, so I have scarily a lot in common with one guy. The rest of the guys (and I do mean all guys) seem kind of young, but I dunno. I was too busy being tripped out by John.
the rest of the day, we got a lecture on how to use UPIC. For those of you who are wondering how to use UPIC: you can’t. Forget it. Or you could just fake it with wavetables in your language of choice. OR you could buy metasynth and be able to do everything UPIC does and a lot of things that it doesn’t do all on normal hardware (unlike UPIC). Or, eventually, there will be a 3d open source version of UPIC, after they find a PhD student willing to write a 3D display engine. (I want said student to work on JJiCalc.)
The teacher spent a LOT of time explaining what FM synthesis was. I’m all nervous now. Why am I taking a year long class in electronic music if I have a damn masters degree in it? I could have gone to Germany and studied art robots. Or taken the art robot money and gone to Berlin. Not that Paris is bad. and the class schedule is . . . sparse, so I have a lot of time for writing music / goofing off. And it’s all about the lab time.
I know more than I think I know and I’m more qualified than I think I am and I’m going to get a PhD soon and then I will teach at a place like this.
Ahem. UPIC is so weird and constrained and archaic that I’m sure being forced to use it will give me a million ideas which I could then code up in Supercollider for years after I leave this place and it’s dedicated UPIC hardware behind. Alas, nobody in the class has anymore connection to the Paris music scene than I do. I must befriend the tech guy (he’s cool anyway. I met him a couple of years ago, but I’m sure he doesn’t remember. (Eventually somebody is going to connect me with the ex . . .)) and maybe some of the Artists in Residence.
Anything that forces me to write music is good. Anything that gets me playing in Paris is good. This is all good. I’m always so nervous about new things.
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Rebel, rebel, I love your dress

From an article in the Chicago Sun Times called “Boy, girl or transmale?”

”I think the fluidity of gender is the next big wave in terms of adolescent development,” says Caitlin Ryan, a clinical social worker at San Francisco State University who is conducting a long-term sexual orientation and gender survey of youth and their families. “Gender has become part of the defining way that youth organize themselves and rebel against adults.”

To some youth, playing with gender identity and roles is as much about fun and self-expression as anything. “There’s a kind of tongue-in-cheek aspect to it,” Ryan says, “as well as a celebration of oneself.”

Yo, I’m down with the kids. Or, I’m immature.
That’s it, I’m totally getting a motorcycle when I get home.
I don’t know whether to be annoyed or maybe gender fluidity really IS the next big thing for teens. Hopefully.
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I podcast

I am now Podcasting. To subscribe via itunes, fire up the application. Under the Advanced menu, select Subscribe to Podcast. In the box, paste in: feed://www.berkeleynoise.com/celesteh/podcast/?feed=rss2 .

Never before seen on the internet mp3s of my Toy Piano Nonette (what you haven’t written a piece for 9 toy pianos?) and my Fred Phelps piece just added. More to come. Feedback welcome.
Edit: You may notice that I’ve got a bunch of categories. Well, say you’re only interested in music that I do that uses the program Supercollider. I’ve tagged all of that music with the tag “SuperCollider,” so you could use that tag to only subscribe to those pieces: http://www.berkeleynoise.com/celesteh/podcast/?feed=rss2&category_name=SuperCollider , you could also sort by year, since that’s a tag or by any category listed on the right. fun fun fun
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to do, etc

Yesterday, Cola got on the train to Spain in the rain. It’s been cold and wet here. She will be nice and warm in Spain. Yuri shows up tomorrow and my school starts Tuesday, so I should be able to hold overwhelming loneliness at bay. Also, I should clean the damn house. Today there was a trans march, but I didn’t see the article about it in Liberation until two hours after it started. ActUp lists a starting location but not a destination or anything. Oh well. Protesting during only my third weekend here would have been something. Maybe I should join a student movement or something.

(skip to the more interesting part)
My day so far: Woke up late. Read news. Made coffee (Cola has made coffee every morning so far *sniff*. And we’re nearly out of coffee filters!), 25% of chores. Looked at Berkeley’s extensive documentation requirement for application. Wondered where else I should apply to. Wondered how on earth to get Anthony Braxton to fill out UC Berkeley’s required forms since I can’t call him and email is sometimes hit or miss. Placed a phone call over the internet (yay skype. username: celesteh1 . I’m also on AIM and Gtalk, but I can’t do VOIP on Gtalk with everyone, only some people). Got a regular phone call from my ISP. As soon as people hear me say «Bonjour» on the phone, they say, “oh, you don’t speak French, do you?” Well, a little. Anyway, they’re calling me back in English on tuesday, which is good, because I don’t know if I signed up for the thing where I can make unlimited local calls on a DSL phone for not.
The DSL hardware I’m renting, by the way, it extremely annoying. The metal contacts on the DSL filters don’t actually touch any of the metal contacts in my phone jacks. I’ve been forced to jam a bunch of used metro tickets under one side of the adaptor and tape the whole thing in place with gaffing tape (a relative of duct tape). My piece of hardware has a warm pulsing glow of the France Telecom logo, which should make Yuri feel warm and cozy at night. When I unplug it at night for her, it will forget all of the settings, because the “save to flash memory” button on the gateway webpage is apparently some sort of prank. Switching to the english version of said web page crashes Safari. I can’t get it to change any of the settings at all, except somewhat randomly. I’ve failed to change the password, the name of the network, or the wireless channel it runs on. It does, however, change settings by itself in exciting and interesting ways. TV over DSL (huh?) is turned on. Now it’s turned off? I haven’t tried changing settings over an ethernet cable yet, as I don’t have one. I suspect that in order to change settings, I need to connect to it via USB, which entails installing a bunch of device drivers written by the same people who can’t make telephone connectors and whose web interface claims to work while not working at all. I’ll probably do it eventually. I wish I had an external hard drive to boot from or something. I like how stable my laptop is and I sense I may sacrifice that. Alas!
I’m drinking loads of coffee and I slept in late, so I will have energy for Nuit Blanche. There’s a bunch of art installations going up tonight from 7PM to 7AM and a bunch of bars and restaurants are staying open for it. I will take as many pictures as I can, which may not be very many on account of the darkness and a reluctance to use my flash since it annoys people. Now I must go make dinner in advance of going out. Wish I knew somebody to go with.
And, tomorrow is the free day at the Louvre.
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and it turns out

the problem is that my landline doesn’t make outgoing calls. the landlord has thoughtfully restricted it so that i can’t make calls without a calling card. which is why cola’s cell phone can call it, but it can’t call cola’s cell phone. it only took me about 4 times hearing the recorded message before i understood what it said.

I hate the telephone. And I’m downloading skype right now.
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going to the grocery store is no longer a fun-filled exciting day

Starting to get some survival skills. There are somethings that I can’t manage, though. When I’m walking straight towards someone, I step to the right, so we don’t crash into each other. This is clearly not what the French person expects. I get really uptight in crowded spaces because I don’t know how to go around people.

Yesterday, I went to put money in my new bank account. The nice woman at the bank spent like 20 minutes explaining that I should get cash out of the ATM, and then go talk to the teller next door to deposit it. After a few more explanations, and some pointing, this mission was finally accomplished. Then I went grocery shopping which has become easy enough to revert to being mundane. Then I went to buy a bike pump (as Cola has a flat tire) and decided that maybe I should just buy a helmet already. Simple questions and simple answers I can handle. “Which is the least expensive helmet?” “I have the head, she very small.”
Then we went to get Cola a cell phone. For this transaction, they needed to see my identity card. I guess that’s why the copier felt free to read it, since it seems like it’s public anyway. There’s hardly a thing you can do without it. I spouted off more barely comprehensible french. Then we went to dinner. This was our first dinner out since arriving. We went to a tiny vegetarian place in the 4th, very much a tourist area. The food was pretty good. They didn’t have carafes of house wine, so we were forced (forced, i tell you) to order a whole bottle. Anyway, afterwards we wandered into a church that was built in 1520 or something. I was surprised to see it open so late. There are informational signs inside, so tourists are definitely welcome. But then I saw they were doing an adoration of the Holy Eucharist, so we left.
In the very very old days, all Christian churches faced east. Between that and the stained glass windows, Christianity looks a lot like a cult of sun worshipping (that pun is English-only, alas). In the middle ages, there started to be a cult of relics, where pieces of dead saints were displayed as a holy objects whose proximity enhanced prayer and holy meditation. Tied up in this was the emergence of the idea of transubstantiation. The piece of bread used in the Mass actually becomes Jesus, according to catholic belief. Because the presence of relics (pieces of dead saints) in gold reliquaries (holders for said relics) enhanced prayer and meditation, a piece of Jesus would certainly have even greater potency. A special reliquary for the consecrated host (transubstantiated bread) was invented and was called a monstrance. It’s a round glass holder which holds the round host within it. Then, radiating outwards from the host like rays of the son, there are gold decorations. It strongly resembles a symbol of the sun, perhaps demonstrating a strong unconscious link with sun worship, even though the official symbology is that of a death cult. There is an uneasy mingling of solar symbols and death symbols, with vibrant stained glass windows and macabre crucifixes. Anyway, given that adoration of the blessed sacrament is extremely holy, when I saw the monstrance, I thought it would be disrespectful to try to take unobtrusive photos of the requisite Joan of Arc statue (in every Catholic church in France, afaik) and exit.
Then we went to an abandoned gay bar and then drunk biking home. Good thing I have a helmet.
Today, we have occupied ourselves trying to discover the mysteries of Cola’s new cell phone. Not since the Pharaoh’s tomb was first discovered have people scratched their heads so violently at mysterious hieroglyphics. For instance, what the heck is her phone number? I called the information code and pressed 0 for operator. (bracketed [] text is in english).
“What is the number telephone with we talk now?” Strangely the operator failed to catch my drift. “[Yesterday] I purchased cell phone. I’m not acquainted with number of telephone.” She told me to call another number, so I did. It read the number in fast french. I got all but two numbers. What was ‘swason set’ and ‘trant weet’? We covered numbers in my French class over the summer. Everything between 1 and 100 000 000 in about an hour or less. I saw the concierge outside and rushed down to ask her. “Hello, madam, please excuse me for disturbing you, but I’m having a problem. I buy telephone cellular and number ‘swason set.’ I don’t understand the number ‘swason set’? Write it please?” She was very helpful, perhaps impressed by my memorized introductory phrase. But I tried calling the phone number and it didn’t work. So I rushed back down with the phone. “I don’t understand number. Phone, she says number. I don’t understand.” The concierge went for her glasses. “no no. She says number!” The word ‘ecoutez’ escaped my brain. Finally I put the phone to my ear. She wrote down the same number as before. I thanked her profusely and then realized I had locked myself out of my building. “I forgot mine key!”
Maybe the phone needs to have cash put onto it? We went to an ATM but couldn’t figure out how to use it to charge the phone. (It is possible, according to the phone company’s web page (which is just a ton of fun in google translator, since about half the text is in image files).) Ok, so we went to a tabbac and bought a phone card and have spent the last hour or so trying to figure out which numbers to press. French is hard. Maybe the second most difficult spoken language (not as hard to read as German, but way harder to speak and understand spoken) and doubly difficult over the phone. finally the recorded voice said the phone card had already been used. Yay. But we still can’t call the phone. The web page for the phone company says no such number exists. (Inspiration strikes as I type this! no, alas, a false lead.)
MY school has not yet posted the schedule. Which is too bad, because I really need to know when I’ll have time for French classes. Maybe a cellphone class. I’m going to go get out a dictionary and figure out what I want to ask, write it down poorly, and then go back to happy phone and ask some questions.
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