Summer Plans / Tour Plans

I have the idea that it might be fun and interesting to do a little tour of Germany over the summer. I know some folks in a few cities who might be able to help me play a bit. My dad gave my a German rail pass for xmas/my birthday, and I want to travel anyway, so this is just for fun and doesn’t need to pay for itself. Even 10 minutes as an opener would be great. If any of you, dear readers, have suggestions of who I should contact in Germany (or France or the Netherlands) about playing a bit, I would be very happy to hear about it. My email is celesteh AT gmail DOT com

I am just back from Munich and had a super great time. I will post more about it later. Some pictures are up. More coming.
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Application Time!

  1. Why do you want to follow the educational programme of the Sonology Course?
  2. Legal weed!
    Need to do something next year
    All my friends are doing it. All the cool kids go there.
    My MA advisor told me to. As did my friends here, and everyone I’ve ever met who ever went there. (true)
    I hear it’s much easier to get gigs in den Haag. Plus it’s not far from Paris, so I could keep playing gigs here too (once I finally make some connections any day now, I’m on the verge, I can feel it). And it’s not far from Amsterdam, which is rumored to have a good electronic scene. Also, I mean, have you read your course description? Why wouldn’t I want to go? You even have an analog studio, so I wouldn’t have to be all digital all the time.

  3. Which project(s) do you intend to realize during your study?
  4. Algorithmic composition with adaptive tuning. I want to design a system, in SuperCollider or another language, that can, when given a timbre, construct a scale and some reasonable-sounding harmonies within the new scale.

I hate doing applications. Of course I want to go there, it’s a great school. Everyone that I mention it to says that I should go there. And they have a new PhD program-ish thing, which I might be interested in. Somebody told me that it’s a lot like the program that I’m in now except that they have more classes, a more regular schedule and there’s really an opportunity to get into the local music scene. So, everything I like about CCMIX and a solution to some of the things that I don’t like. Plus, it’s another thing to put on my CV or whatever when I do PhD applications next fall. And it’s another year of EU student visa.
They must have 83461378659873 applicants. I’m too old for school. I keep falling asleep in class (augh, it’s bad). I just want to compose someplace, sort of attached to something in some nice country someplace.
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Lundi

That means “monday.” Clever post title, eh? I just gave my SuperCollider lecture and have posted my lecture notes to the internets. It is a vastly distilled introduction which would normally be multiple weeks worth of lecture. But speed is of the essence and composers have their own, strange, idiosyncratic approaches to programming, anyway. Somebody could start to make music with that and if they have interest, they’ll explore more on their own, which is how all programming for musicians works and why composer’s programs look so weird.

My earlier tutorial was every bit as disorganized and weird as Ron claimed it was. Arg, I hate it when I argue with people and they turn out to be right. Anyway, maybe it’s time to resurrect the write-a-SuperCollider-book plan from the dead.
All the (native) anglophones and only the anglophones came. This may or may not have cultural significance. After dumping too much information at them, I went to Mariano’s house and he made dinner. It was nice.
I wonder if anyone will end up programming in SuperCollider after this. Now I must go write notes for what to say about SynthDef design, how to play buffers and how to get Pbinds to talk to your Synthdefs and bend them to your will. Also, must apply to Sonology while I still have time. And pay my rent. after my Western Union disaster of last month, my landlord told me to pay her mother. I just, finally, got a checkbook from my bank, so I wrote a check for the rent. First time writing a french check. I felt like such an idiot. I almost went to the bank for help, but then Cola found a website which said how to write it. Despite this, my landlord’s mother sent back the check with corrections. So I need to buy a stamp and mail it. Ahh, but how to buy stamps? I thought these ATMs outside of post offices must sell stamps, what with the little animated images of stamps, but they do not, at least not in an obvious way. Foreigner = clueless. Also, when I was buying a rhubarb tarte, the first bakery woman could not understand me. I asked the second one how to say the name of the tarte and it sounded exactly like what I was saying. How can I fix my accent if I can’t even hear the difference? I am even worse than Eliza Doolittle, who could at least hear that things sounds more gentile-like.
How much should I worry about this? How much time do I have left? Barely 6 weeks of school. I feel like I just arrived. I just survived winter. It can’t be time to leave, I’m not ready.
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New York Fucking Times on Immigration

“The illegals are probably better workers than the legal ones,” said Mike Gonya, who farms 2,800 acres of wheat and vegetables near Fremont, Ohio. “The legal ones know the system. They know legal recourse. The illegal ones will bust their butts.”

(http://www.nytimes.com/2006/04/09/washington/09immig.html?pagewanted=2&ei=5088&en=37ed6a9386660cda&ex=1302235200&partner=rssnyt&emc=rss)
The undocumented workers are easier to exploit, so I prefer a system which keeps them in constant jeopardy and in which they are kept ignorant of their rights.
Did the NYT note the problematic nature of that remark? No they did not. Recently they ran another article about blatant union busting on the part of an airline, in which they blamed the union for management’s decision to go with more expensive maintenance facilities, where the workers were non-union and underpaid. Longer turn around. Less efficiency. But no danger of strikes! The union brought this upon itself, according to the Times.
This is supposed to be the liberal newspaper in America. There’s no hope for the country until some civic-minded individual burns their buildings to the fucking ground.
Metaphorically speaking, of course.
When Jefferson or whoever said he’d rather have newspapers and no government, he really didn’t know what he was asking for. I mean, could he have imagined the Hurricane in NOLA, which showed that our government is indeed non-functioning coupled with the misanthropic, vile, worker-hating “news” media in the United States? I really don’t think he could have foreseen that argument as anything more than a rhetorical trick. Yet there y’all are with no functioning government (aside form, you know, bungling the waging of wars and putting people in jail in a blatantly racist and genocidal manner) and a bunch or publications purported to be newspapers. Maybe we ended up with neither thing.
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Randomness About Stanford Band

It looks like the good times might be over. I want to draw attention to one quote:

Perhaps most famously, in a 1991 game against Notre Dame, a Stanford band member dressed as a nun conducted the band using a crucifix for a baton. The Fighting Irish indefinitely suspended Stanford from their stadium.

I was there. Notre Dame doesn’t send it’s band to all of it’s away games. About half the time, it calls in Catholic Highschool bands who quickly learn the Notre Dame fight song. And for this particular game, I was playing tuba on behalf of Notre Dame.
I had been to gay pride the first time the summer previous. (This can’t have been 1991, memory is funny.) It was the first time I ever really felt validated as a queer person. So when Stanford band came marching in, it looked a lot like gay pride, and I felt a surge of pride myself. The drum major, who I think was probably a man, was indeed dressed like a nun, in the flamboyant style of the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence. S/he was holding a crucifix on a long stick and using it as a baton. Behind, s/he was leading a man on a chain, who was carrying a small sign that said “boy toy.” They were trying very much to look as queer and as pride-like as possible. It was awesome.
Meanwhile, Notre Dame was sooo heteronormative. All the cheerleaders were all clean cut, the girls all had long hair. The male cheerleaders were manly, even. They did pushups every time Notre Dame scored. How does that fire up the crowd? Notre Dame’s cheerleaders sucked.
When half time came, a ton of band alums were there due to some sort of anniversary. They stood around the edges, but the rest of the band scrambled to form various shapes. The one that really pissed off Notre Dame? It wasn’t the drum major, as that’s a standard of pride events. No, they were enraged because the Stanford band formed a coat hanger.
I fucking love Stanford Band for that. They played for groups oppressed by the Catholic Church and it’s organs like Notre Dame. Not only that, but all us highschool kids were chafing under the restrictions imposed upon us. We wanted to be cool, like Stanford. We all wanted to be more like the band that was so so so GAY!
I fucking love the Stanford Band.
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Small World

Mariano, David and I went to the largest park in Paris, to meet the guy from yesterday who had the durian (Cyril). After looking around for a while (the largest park in Paris is fairly large), we found him and tried the durian. I had convinced myself that I must have eaten it before. But now I don’t know if it was my first time or not. It’s kind of sweet, but has a sorts of garlicy/oniony savory flavor that seems to put people off. Also, the piece I had was extremely slimy. I would eat it again.

After trying the durian, I heard a woman shout “Celeste!” It was someone from la Barbare, which is the lesbian / feminist separatist space where I had my concert. She was a friend of Cyril’s. She told me about a party later at a squat where her friend would be playing (along with like 30 other bands until 5 in the morning) and said I should come. Ok. Small world. She seemed very pleased to have run into me and as she left, I said I’d see her later that night.
After a while, there were only seven of us left. Cyril, 3 of his friends and us 3 composers. We re-conviened at a bar and talked for a while. One of the guys had lived in San Francisco for a few years (2 in the Castro, 2 in the Mission) and had gone to do engineering at UC Berkeley. Small World.
After the party finally broke up, I went to Mariano’s for a a little while and then went to la Barbare, hoping to get food and meet up with Solène. She wants me to write some music for recorder for her. Ok, cool. Need some ideas for that ASAP. Send your recorder ideas to _____.
While at la Barbare, I got contact info for yet another squat. I will one day be an underground squat sensation, if only I can ever get in to meet the right people. The squat plans for later in the evening fell apart when it turned out that the squat in question had closed the door to late arrivals. This was all relayed by cellphone, I missed the action. Anyway, it turns out that Cyril is also a good friend of Solène and some other musicians that she’s introduced me to in the past. Small World.
So it was fun chatting at the Barbare and I got two plates of food and a cup of tea, which I completely forgot to pay for. When the plans for squat hopping fell though, Solène and the woman from Cyril’s party decided amongst themselves that they would hang out until late in the night and ride back on the latter’s scooter. Eventually, Solène said, “you’re not waiting for us to take the metro are you?” Err, no. (yes) Shit it’s 12:30. I ran and caught the last train back.
So, in summary, it’s a small world after all. Durian guy turned out to not really be a stranger (Paris isn’t really all that big). And my life sounds more exciting when I summarize it on a week-by-week level rather than one day at a time.
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My life sounds so exciting when I write it down

And I have to write it down, or I’ll have no memory of what I’ve been doing.

Biking

Last Saturday, the weather was lovely and I had the idea of going for a nice relaxing bike ride. And then I saw that it was the weekend for velorution. velo = bike. revolution = revolution. velorution = critical mass type bike ride to save the earth. So Cola and I went to this thing. It was very low key and mellow. Somebody showed up with brightly colored flags on long sticks which were zip-tied to people’s bikes. I got a green flag and Cola got a purple one. Oodles of literature was handed out. Meanwhile, while we were setting up at Place du Châtelet, Greenpeace was also setting up a small table and a group of anti-choice activists was screwing a small virgin Mary statue to a tripod. Châtelet is the place for all sorts of activism.

Then we set off for a nice leisurely ride around the city and especially along the St Martin Canal (right by chez moi!) where we blocked traffic for several minutes, because of the planned manifestation for more bike lanes, and many minutes more because the bridge closed to make way for a boat on the canal. Drivers were annoyed, but, we explained, “c’est une manifestation!” to which they would concede it was entirely proper that we block traffic, but why must we do it so long and can’t we just let them through. Despite these arguments it was very chill and we chanted bike chants “[something something] la solution? c’est la velo — rution!” and “something something abandonez votre voiture!” and sang bike songs, which I didn’t even catch part of. After a nice bike ride around the canal and another traffic blockage, we went to the nice little park that I always go to and we all drank some beer.

The dangers of old oatmeal and late-night restaurants

Then I went home, ate old oatmeal and went to Michelle’s house to try to figure out what the heck is wrong with her computer. It’s sometimes failing the POST, which is not good at all. I got home extremely late and went to an Italian food place that’s open late at night, which I used to go to quite frequently. And quite early Sunday morning I was struck suddenly ill. I am never going to that Italian place ever again. Also, it is unwise to eat old oatmeal. And waking up at 5:30 AM and tossing your cookies pretty much ruins your whole day. Cola went out to a giant concert at Place de la Republique which was in favor of immigrant rights (w00t), but I stayed home and felt crappy.

School

Monday I went to school where Jean Claude Risset was the teacher for the next several days. He was at Bell Labs in the 1960’s, when computer music was shiny and new. And then he was at Stanford while they were inventing FM synthesis, and basically every important computer music thing, he was there. He figured out how to successfully synthesize a trumpet using additive synthesis. Now, not but a week earlier, I had been thinking about how (I thought) that synthesizing natural instruments was a waste of time. Why emulate a trumpet when the world is full of trumpet players? Well, synthesized trumpets are sometimes decidedly cheesy, but the lessons you learn from making such simulations are directly applicable to to more abstract electronic sounds. It was immediately clear this was the case as he described the difficulties in discovering all the transients and the different amplitudes of different overtones and different times. It was just so clearly right and worthwhile.
So my mind was completely changed in that regard. Also, having been at Bell Labs and Stanford, he knew everybody. He would just mention names conversationally. He wrote some fractal piece and then mentioned in passing Mandelbrot’s reaction to it. Yeah, Mandelbrot. Holy cow. Also, he would sort of pace around the room and lose track of where varios obstacles were. He would fall over his chair about ever other hour. The class was awesome.
So he asked what we were interested in and I mentioned that I was interested in adapting tuning to timbre. We learned about dissonance curves in the fall, usually as applied to samples. But, I reasoned, it would be much easier to analyze FM sounds. They’re very rich (full of harmonics) but all the harmonics are completely mathematically predictable. Thus you could quickly pick some timbres and have the tunings sort themselves out automagically. So Risset promised he would talk about a pice by John Chowning called Stria
This is the second time in the last year or so that I’ve been working on a pice only to find out that somebody at Stanford has already done it. In this case in 1977. Curse them for coming up with all my ideas before me.

Leisure

Meanwhile, I went back to Michelle’s Monday night and further swore at her computer. One of the RAM simms keeps falling out. When I got home, Aaron, Cola’s ex was at my apartment. He stayed for the next several days. Every evening, when I would get home form school, he would just be opening a bottle of wine and whatever cheese he was determined to try. Then we would go out to a restaurant and have a nice leisurely meal. Oh yes, Paris. Food. Wine.
Also, we got Easter candy. Chocolate sea creatures. Also, you can get rabbits, eggs, bells, chickens, turtles, frogs, lions, elephants and um, it’s kind of weird. But the chocolate is really good, so all is well.
We also connected with Herf, somebody from San Francisco who lives in Paris, but whom I haven’t spoken to in months. Apparently the winter hibernation thing which I experienced is actually pretty typical. But now it is glorious, wonderful spring

Art

On Thursday, school was out, so we went to the Pompidou Centre to see the exhibit on Los Angeles artists. As far as I can tell, there are usually always two things going on at the Pompidou. There’s the permanent collection and then there’s a visting exhibit. The permanent collection was excellent when I saw it, and very well organized and well curated. The visiting exhibit is on the top floor and is about one subject and is very very large. Too big. When I saw the Dada exhibit, it was exhausting. I love Dada, because it was just so wonderful and, of course, an anti-war art. It could be construed as a failure in that respect. Despite gaining popularity all over Europe, the Unites States and even Japan, another horrible war followed shortly thereafter. Art signifies nothing! I left feeling like maybe political art was worthless. Why create art at all, since humanity is so barbaric to each other and engaged in constant slaughter. Art is an exercise in uselessness and deception.
Anyway, so I went to see the LA exhibit. It got off to a promising start. I started thinking about applying to CalArts (I think they have a PhD program). But then it just drug on and on and on. Several of the works could be described as somewhat misogynist. Many could be very charitably termed as self-indulgent. From walking through, you’d think that LA was nothing but white men. They had ONE room which contained hispanic and feminist art. Hispanics got one wall. Women got another. The other two went to something else. The women wall was a video of a protest. Which, cool, but uh….
Ugh I hate LA. Hate hate hate. This is the second time I’ve left the travelling exhibit feeling like art was self-indulgent and worthless. Also, LA is more than wanking white men and it’s not fair that it’s constantly presented as such. It’s the fault of the white male wankers. If only there was some way to lure them out of state and keep them there.

Loneliness

Anyway, Cola has been lured out of the country. She left for Amsterdam today. She comes back next wednesday.

Music

So thursday, I called this guy who programs music for a squat and asked for a meeting, because I want to get a gig there. He told me to come to a jam session on Friday night and we should have a meeting next Thursday. Fine, jam sessions are community building and so much of these little spaces is about community. So I showed up tonight with Mariano to the pre-jam dinner and it’s full of anglophones. Mariano and I were sitting next to a bag when the owner arrived and apologized if we thought his bag smelled like something was rotting inside. Mariano asked the obvious question and the man, very pleased with himself, produced a durian from his bag. This is a giant spiky fruit which is very heavy and covered with sharp points. Some people think they smell bad. They’re supposed to taste very good. When I last went to the Egyptian Museum in San Jose, their durian tree was producing fruit and they had to rope off the lawn, lest a very heavy spiky fruit fall on someone’s head. The man was very pleased with my story. Meanwhile, a film crew had appeared and was taping the entire conversation and me holding the very uncomfortable fruit as it’s points stabbed my hands like St Sebastian’s arrows. The film crew was doing a documentary, they hope for Arte TV. (Look for me holding painful fruit.) This was all too nifty, so the guy invited Mariano and I to come to a picnic in a park tomorrow and eat durian with this guy and his friends. We said yes and the film crew moved on to interview the guy we wanted to see.
He was really busy setting stuff up, so we talked to him only long enough to establish that he had absolutely no recollection of having scheduled a meeting. Great. So finally the Jam session started. It was funk music. This was one of the first events I’ve been to in Paris that was actually significantly integrated. I listened for a while and film crew filmed the jamming. Jamming is really hard actually. You get something going and then you have a lot of inertia. It’s hard to make a change, like in key or style and it’s harder to stop. Jam songs tend to go on far too long and it requires practice to stop them in a coherent way when they need to be stopped. Practice or hand signals. And the leader or whoever needs to have a good sense of when to give said signals. I seem to recall Tennis Roberts (a critically acclaimed jam art rock band from Berkeley, CA) practicing with a clock going, so we could learn when to stop.

the Future

Anyway, Mariano and I left for a while and sat at a bar. We’re going to meet tomorrow to go to a park and eat durian. On Monday, there’s evening class wherein I will be presenting an introduction to programming in SuperCollider. On Tuesday, we’re having normal evening class. On Wednesday, I will be presenting how to write synthdefs in SuperCollider and Cola returns. On thursday, we have normal class and Sarah Dotie arrives. On Friday Sarah, Cola and I will depart for Germany.

In summary

Everything they say about Paris in Springtime is true! Also, one day I hope to get a co-ed gig in Europe.
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What is going on?

Is France still on a general strike or what? The Journal en Français Facile is on strike. This is my primary source for news. Otherwise, I pick through Liberation articles or read anglophone expat blogs, which sadly and annoyingly mainly contain the idea that French youth should be grovelling for shitty jobs at which they can be fired without cause, rather than demand their rights be respected. Yeah, this is why American unemployment is much much higher, unions are weak and wages are low and you can lose your house over a health problem in America. No offense, but the anglophones have done a terrible job of protecting workers rights in their own countries and maybe should stop criticizing French protesters and start emulating them. Also, if the French social system annoys you so much, maybe it’s not the country for you?

Before you quibble with me about American unemployment stats, please note that France uses a different method to count, which is probably more accurate and that America’s unemployment in minority communities is much worse than in France’s minority communities. Much, much worse. And being able to fire people left and right doesn’t seem to be helping.
Anyway, could you imagine how different things would be in the US if journalists belonged to a union and did things like went on strike? I mean, sure, you could say it would hurt the idea of them being impartial. But if they don’t ever do things like that, aren’t the just being partial towards business and the owning class?
Still, I want my news. I listen to the podcast first thing before I go outside. It’s like booting the french-understanding part of my brain. It eases me into speaking French for the day. Also, no news. I try getting my news from Radio Canada, but the accents are harder and they speak so quickly. And so often about Steven Harper.
Speaking of strikes and politically active Highschool students, the kids in LA give me so much hope for America. Maybe if the youth rise up, the government will stop oppressing folks so much. Alas, on the other hand, the Catholic church is a driving force behind this. Sometimes they are right and sometimes they are wrong. Their ability to mobilize people for civil rights is fantastic, but I worry they will also be able to mobilize people against civil rights too. The communal nature of a mass movement is not what gives it moral authority, but rather, the rightness of the cause. People marching for immigrant rights is fantastic, but the church has also tried to get people to march against women and gays. If they get skills at turning people out, this is not good overall. The kids, however, are organizing via mySpace with their own tools and of their own volition. I have faith in the youth.
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Mon Week-end

“Le week-end” is a French term. True. Anyway, on Friday night, I went bar-hopping with Solène around the 4th. It was pretty fun. On Saturday, I went to a party thrown by one of the guys in my program. Music school parties are the same everywhere in the world. Too much wine, too much smoke, too much arguing about which composers suck and which are great. And, of course, talking about sex, maybe too much fo that too. In all it was really too much as I got home at 5:00 am, after having too much of a great time.
On Sunday afternoon, I woke up with a headache and decided to walk down to Place de la Sorbonne. Informed readers will know that the police have put up large barricades around the square and are not letting students assemble there. However, I recently learned that the café there is still open. So I walked towards there from Châtelet, smilingly stupidly in the warm weather. It was around 18 degres C. So lovely. People speak of Paris in the springtime. So far the trees are still bare and the weather gray, but the Parisians are blooming. People are wearing colors other than black. French folks are smiling. They are making out with each other in public in the middle of the day. A couple of days ago, I saw a middle aged couple kissing in the street. On Sunday, I was pointing at a brass band by the very touristy St Michel and saying something about it in English to cola and an old Parisian man explained to me in French the history of the fountain and where the nearby museums are. He smiled and was helpful to the tourist! There is something magic about spring. When I got to the Place de la Sorbonne and started explaining to the gendarmes that I wanted to go to the café, they smiled at me!

so I went to the café there and had chai. It was a surreal scene full of napping cops and really, I’ve never seen that square so deserted. I keep going to weird places with Cola during protests. An empty Time Square in NYC. Anyway, if you stay up until 5:00 AM defending the honor of Charles Ives and drinking wine, it’s a bad idea to have a hot sweet milky beverage in the warm afternoon the at follows. Ugh. But when I got home around 6:00, the sun was still shining. Thank god for spring.
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