crash

I woke up today at a noon and then went to help clean up the bar where I was dancing until 4 am. Got to sleep at 5-something this morning. I feel destroyed from tiredness, but not so much from hangover. Which is nice, since I had a lot of beer and pot but no dinner last night.
The last couple of days have felt tumultuous. Stress ameliorated through unclean living. I felt twice as outsider and twice as insider in the span of a few hours than I’ve felt in months. Also, twice as alive. I need to think about some stuff.
But I wanted to share that I’ve been trashed the last few nights in a row, as this seems to be expected behavior when one visits amsterdam.